What you are is what you have been, and what you will be is what you do now

Wednesday, January 13

Spiderman Revamped



Spiderman 4.. err 1 is to be released in 2012.
"The 34-year-old actor and "Spider-Man" director Sam Raimi will not be returning to the superhero franchise next year. Instead, Sony Pictures and Marvel Studios announced Monday that a new "Spider-Man" film based on a script by James Vanderbilt that focuses on Peter Parker in high school would debut in the summer of 2012 with a new cast and filmmaking team."

::squeaky voice:: I'm so happy ::sniff::

I love spiderman. loveloveloved it since I was a kid. The movies were alright. But I am 110% all for a new director, story and cast. //ugh Kirsten Dunst can go, she's aiight. No Mary Jane Watson though!// I will miss James Franco <3 Tobey was never my ideal but he was decent. I can see how he works.

New director, cast, and story - OH MY!

Word has it theres a Venom Movie in the works ::wiggles eyebrows:: nice.

Breathe by Taylor Swift

What are you doing? - It's called "Wallowing"





Gilmore Girls has taught me that if i'm heartbroken it is perfectly okay to sob hysterically while watching a sad love story and just pig out on massive amounts of ice cream. Of course I like to revise such methods by adding some soda, candy, PEEPS, cheetos, etc. They make me happy ::cheese::

Oh and sitting in the eatery with a good friend just letting it all out in an empty mall at 10pm on a Tuesday night works wonders as well =D but please remember to bring mase and whatever possible self defense moves you have learned throughout your life because the creepers like to come out and share as well.

OMG BECKY LOOK. AT. HER .BUTT!



Sakura Haruno
//From Naruto//

Being bored at 3am inspires me to draw ::laughs:: too bad I'm terrible at body proportions and ended up making her ass HUGE and thus drawing the legs became somewhat difficult ... which is why she has about 5 of them ::thumbs up::

Tuesday, January 12

The Breaker


Manga Recommendation:
THE BREAKER
Status Ongoing
Author(s) Jeon Keuk-jin
Artist(s) Park Jin-hwan
Genre(s) Action, Comedy, Drama, Martial Arts, School Life, Seinen, Manhwa
You can read it here at mangafox.com (or onemanga.com)

I love me some good action and a hand full of bad ass characters <3

This Love is Taking all of my Energy

"Now I can feel a change in me
And I can't afford to slip much further
From the person I was meant to be
I'm not afraid to walk alone
Not give it up but moving on
Before it gets to deep
Cause your taking all of my energy"
Energy ~ Keri Hilson
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1. "Don't break me I bruise easily - the source of both your love and misery" Message from you heart

2. Apparently you can get sinus pressure/congestion in your eye... ::holds eye and dry sobs:: feels like I took a brick to the face.

3. Facebook sucks. And no I will not TWEET.

4. Got a new haircut, looked at myself in the mirror and said "And here I thought I couldn't get anymore asian" ::throws up peace signs::

5. Some people are just dumb. What I consider family is what I consider family. Fuck off.

6. 2010 has yet to bring me any joy. Why the hell does time go by so fast?

7. Yeah thats me in the banner ::peace sign again::

8. 3.5 this past semester. Heelllll yessssss!! Tryna focus more in school and perhaps graduate with some honors. Went to a job shadow program. Very worth while and informative. If you get a chance you should deff take the opportunity to participate in one.

9. Some girls just don't realize how good they've got it.

10. Hoping to go to Thailand (or anywhere really) and get away from here for even just a little bit. Studying abroad is an amazing experience.

11. Robert Downey Jr. ROX MY SOX ::wiggles eyebrows:: Sherlock Holmes was brilliant!

12. Almost two months without my beloved Supernatural... I'm going through emotional and sometimes physical withdrawal.

13. Have yet to see Avatar. Every one is scising the shit outta that movie. Meh the animation is beautiful but I was never hyped to see it - the whole story is basically shown in the previews. Its been out for over two weeks and yet its STILL selling out. JAH-HEEZ.

Now Clash of the Titans brings back memories!

14. Hate country songs but GOSH DARNNIT THEY'RE SO FUN TO SING!

15. I officially have no life. I work everyday - nine hours a day. By time I get a break I'm to damn lazy and I have yet to see most of my friends since break started ... a month ago =D

16. Slowly finding out I'm just a bubble of giggles *^__^*

17. Men confuse me. Your all stupid. Why? There are oh so many reasons. Stupid stupid stupid boys.

18. The security guard asked me to pop the front hood. I stared at him "uhh... ::looks around::... I have no idea how =D"

::scoffs:: WOMEN! ::shakes head::

19. DJ Earworm's United States of POP 2009 is awesome. replay.replay.replay

20. When is THE OFFICE coming back? ::sad face:: I need me some MICHAEL!

21. Soooo its almost 1:30am and I have a FULL day tomorrow... Guess I should sleep... orrrr maybe not! =D

Wednesday, January 6

If someone you love hurts you, cry a river, build a bridge, and get over it. ~ Author Unknown

Sunday, September 13

Kanye's comment to Taylor Swift

America is all about freedom of speech. Everyone is entitled to their own opinions and statements. You feel how you feel. I feel how i feel. You think this way. I think that way. Whatever.

But another universality we all share is RESPECT.
Whether you agree on that or not. It's up to you.
but social norms basically condemn you for breaking them.
So what on earth made Kanye think that his unnecessary smart remark would be a good idea for his career?

Personally I don't really care what he may have thought about the outcome of the award or who he thought deserved it more or less. Thats fine that he believed beyonce's video to be one of the best hes ever seen. Sure. I bet a lot of people agree. Please feel free to state your opinion. But DON'T be so IGNORANT and RUDE as to INTERRUPT someone as they are genuinely accepting an award to cry about your own fucking disappointments.

He really couldn't wait till after the show? or to post on fucking twitter for all i care! NOPE. He really felt he had to cut her off and say that mess on stage. Guess his "I am thy god" ego confused his little mind into thinking that that was okay. You wanna be known for speaking your mind? Thats okay. Just don't be a fucking jackass about it.

Kanye, i have absolutely no respect for you for that.

Sunday, August 23

A lil Something the World Needs

A while ago a friend had sent me a text asking what I thought the world needed or could use some more of.

I replied with the first thing that came to mind "COMPASSION".

What You Thought You Knew

You know how when you think you know someone so well, for many years,
You talk to them everyday, all day,
Hang out all the time,
Share secrets and stories,
Comfort each other and help each other out.

Then BAM! Its all lies.

You find out you never really knew them at all.
Sucks.

Disappointment and the bitter taste of frustration mixed with sadness creaks in.

"That person isn't like that. They know better. They would never..."

Yeah well thats what I thought I knew.

"Accept me for who I really am"

But how can I if I don't even know the real you?

Friday, August 21

The Fall of Man



"Adam Knew that Eve would die, so he took the fruit and ate it to die with her"

Adam had forsaken his love and loyalty to God for one woman whom he loved above all else. He gave up everything because he couldn't bare to be without her. That if she were to die so would he. He didn't think twice about the consequences or that God may have forgiven her had he remained loyal to him.. or that God could create for him a new companion. None of that mattered. Seeing Eve as she was.. as beautiful as she was.. he couldn't get passed his love for her. Thus the fall of man and the continuation of sin.

The power a woman holds over a man who loves her

Wednesday, August 19

Prioritze Your Dough Homie

“Don't tell me where your priorities are. Show me where you spend your money and I'll tell you what they are.” James W. Frick

I've always been blessed and spoiled by my parents love. They have given me everything and asked for nothing back.

For example my High School graduation gift was a car. They payed for everything. Gas .. insurance... the car itself!

While i continue to work and earn money only to spend it on clothes, food, movies and other useless materials.

So many people i know, my own age and even younger, work hard to pay for college and their own car expenses. My bestfriend even payed for her college herself for a while! How i admire that kind of dedication.

My parents value education more then anything and gladly pay for my college. And so i have ignorantly taken advantage of that. Only to be hit in the face when i suddenly am threatened with not being able to go to school Fall semester because of financial problems.

Parents are too in debt to get any loans and FAFSA cant help till next school year. I look at my bank account and see how little i have accumulated over the summer due to my impulsive spendings. Thinking about how much i've wasted carelessly actually made me depressed for a while.

my new resolution?:
-signed up for a student monthly payment plan
-help pay for my tuition, giving about 1500 (all i can afford to give =()
-signed up at scholarship.com... gatta stop being lazy and write those essays seriously
- no more eating out and buying unnecessary things
- FAFSA down
- Build resume to get better paying job
- help pay for every semester from now on including books

My education should be my priority and therefore i needa take responsibility and take care of it. I know i cant pay for it myself but that doesn't mean i should sit back and do nothing to contribute either. Better my hard earned money go towards my education then that shirt or two that i wear about once or twice.

Tuesday, June 16

Sometimes

Sometimes i just wanted a guy bestfriend who wouldn't complicate things.

Sometimes i just wanted to pack up and leave.

Sometimes i get scared that you'll leave.

Sometimes i think im too emotional.

Sometimes i just wanted to say sorry and beg for forgiveness.

Sometimes i just wanted to do it all over again.

Sometimes i think im too nice.

Sometimes i honestly believe no one will ever understand me.

Sometimes i smile when i remember.

Sometimes i wish you would talk to me.

Sometimes i wonder if you still think about me.

Sometimes i wish i knew what i wanted to be in life.

Sometimes I think my parents love my brother more.

Sometimes i feel i may be too mature.

Sometimes i feel i may be too naive.

Sometimes i just want to scream and cry to my hearts content.

Sometimes i just want to appear cool and unaffected.

Sometimes i smile but cry on the inside.

Sometimes i wish i wasnt so stupid.

Sometimes i think really stupid thoughts.

Sometimes i wish you became my bestfriend.

Sometimes i wonder who really cares.

Sometimes i feel beautiful.

Sometimes i get really lonely.

Sometimes you piss me off.

Sometimes you make me laugh.

Sometimes i get worried about my future.

Sometimes i don't know what i want.

Sometimes i think i need a life.

Sometimes i hate myself.

Sometimes i think i read too much manga.

Sometimes i cant be what you want me to be.

Sometimes i think i think too much.

Sometimes i lie.

Sometimes i make faces in the mirror.

Sometimes i think im a pervert.

Sometimes i want to be someone else.

Sometimes i think i either try to hard or not hard enough.

Sometimes i feel like its too easy to regret.

Sometimes i think i become more passive aggressive each day.

Sometimes i just get tired of it.

Sometimes i just need a hug.

Sometimes i love my friends so much.

Sometimes i really miss you.

Sometimes i really want to believe im that person you think i am.

Sometimes if i just smile i think i can be strong enough.

Sometimes....

Tuesday, June 9

What it means to forgive

Everytime i pray for forgiveness, i am forgiven.

Sometime ago i had decided that if God could forgive me and all of man kind for our daily sins and trespasses that who was i to deny someone else that grace? God, who is perfect in every way, forgives a dirty sinner as myself who unfailingly continues to sin each and everyday.

I didn't like to forgive other people. I hate hypocrites. But i thought "doesn't that make me a hypocrite?" I ask God for forgiveness when i've done wrong yet i choose not to forgive others when they've done me wrong.

So yes, i forgive. Too easily sometimes. But i do.
It is by choice i forgive, not by obligation or because im to "nice".

But i dont believe forgiving someone is the same as forgetting what that someone did. When i forgive you it means i no longer hold you accountable for your actions in the sense that there is no punishment. It no longer stays an issue and we both move on. But im not stupid. I remember what you did to cause the need to be forgiven.

Let no one tell you its easy to forgive someone, especially if it hurt you deeply. It takes a lot to forgive someone. It keeps me humble.

"Forgiveness is man's deepest need and highest achievement. "-- Horace Bushnell

Thursday, June 4

RaNT RaaNT RaNNnt

So far i've been working about 4 days a week for 9 hours a piece. So whats the big deal with working 3 or 4 hours more? Nothing really... in all honestly 12 hours is do-able...well.. during a slow day like today. But circumstances make all the difference. And i hated working these 12 hours today. "why? you got so many hours! $$$" NOPE. I HATED IT. Why? Well cause this is how it went down:

My manager and supervisor wanted to attend a funeral this morning.
Both of them were scheduled to work the morning shift and I the evening.
My manager asks me to take the morning shift at 9am b/c they wont be there.
So i do them a favor and say yes so they can go to the funeral.
They tell me they will be back in the evening to take over the shift for a few hours. Then she wanted me to do my evening shift still.
Alright. Sounds good.
Wait... wait.. wait wait wait. Both morning and evening shifts!?
"No amina it will be fine, we will come back"

SO i come to work 9 am in the morning. Everyone is surprised to see me. I told them i switched shifts. But then the receptionist tells me that they don't plan to come back because they looked up restaurants and sights to see before they left. What?....
"Oh they better come back! i cant do 12 hours! by myself too! i didn't sign up for that!"

5:30pm rolls around...its the end of the morning shift. Still no one showed up. No phone call either... HMMM. All of my co workers tell me to leave. Why?
-im part time.. i cant exceed my hours even if i wanted to (aka i would get in BIG trouble with Big Boss who already mentioned that i have too many hours)
-they took advantage of my kindness in doing them a favor and left me dry
-they didn't call to say they weren't coming
-they weren't bzy... just out having fun

So i call my manager
ME:"Hey i was wondering about the evening shift b/c ive already done the morning"
Manager: "Oh no its fine, just take a break then go back"
ME: "wait what? you want me to do the evening shift too? thats 12 hours, im not allowed too"
Manager: "no its fine do it, anyway we are heading back now"
Me: "alright, i will talk to you then"

And so i expect them to come back

Feeling emotionally forced, i take my break and conclude that i will be there for another 6 hours... Luckily another manager sympathized with me and told me i could leave but that if i chose to stay he would authorize my overtime.

While on break i find out My manager dropped off my supervisor and left. My supervisor walks in says "Oh its too hot to work" then clocks out and leaves. WAIT... CLOCKS OUT AND LEAVES!?... clocks out...?... i check her time card and indeed... she was clocked in from 9am till 5:30pm. But how? she didn't work..... EXACTLY. SHE DIDNT. So im pissed. How can a person have so much nerve to do that while leaving me stranded here actually working hard by myself. At least have the decency to not clock in WTF! She didn't ask about me or if i needed help. She didn't relieve me from my extra shift b/c "it was too hot to work" and she didn't feel like it...Oh did i mention BOTH of them were scheduled to work that day already??

The hours didn't matter as long as i don't get in trouble. And i wont. Money was never an issue. Its not that important. What made me so upset with working both shifts was the lack of consideration to me as a person. Not me as Amina but me as a PERSON. You don't take advantage of a persons kindness (aka taking your shift for you so u can go to someones funeral who you don't even know and then to hang out) and completely abuse that. They didn't even call to tell me they weren't coming in. Or ask how i was holding up. NOTHING.

So i just grit my teeth and did my shift. By time 7 rolled around i answered no calls.. didn't put away any materials... didn't look out for customers... left a mess. They got it. They can clean tht shit up tomorrow for all i care.

I stayed because im the type of person who will stay if someone needs me to stay. No i don't mean my manager and supervisor. I mean the staff at my workplace who needed me to cover 3 departments. I stayed for them.

But its fine, now i know for next time.