I think imma good girl....never been a rebel - sure i like to have fun but i've never crossed my limits- i know wen to stop. Compared to some of my other friends and a lot of other ppl i've seen i'd say im pretty damn innocent and goody goody. hmph
im almost ALWAYS home... i always tell my parents wen im going out (even though i dont always tell them the truth as to WHERE...i still tell them im going out and when i'll be back)
i have a pretty good relationship with my parents and usually tell my mom almost everything going on in my life
i pick up wen they call... always tell them who im with.
i do all my homework... get good grades... study instead of going out
so why then do they not trust me?
they [my parents] know im smart (most of the time lol) in my decisions and that im responsible.. at least i think... hope they do. My mom always tells me how proud she is of me and how mature she thinks i am. My father only cares that i study and work hard.
so where do all these accusations come from? All so suddenly too. I havent done anything to abuse their trust thus far.
mom im going to the library to study
"Hmm are you sure? Is that really where your going?"
yeah... why wouldnt i be? =/
"I dont know. You tell me"
mom im gonna sleep over to the dorms tonight so nirali can help me on my math assignments- daddy already said its cool
"...i hope ur doing the right thing, dont dissapoint me"
wut are u talking about im really jst studying...
" jst know what ur doing"
then i come home and she realizes i've done nothing yet she says nothing to me like "yeah i thought so- u better have not done anything"
thats fine that shes worried but to act all accusatory towards me without a reason- makes me mad
Like i understand parents exaggerate situations and always look for the worst and in college ppl party and go out all the time. But im sure those of you who know me KNOW im not a party party all the time kinda girl. I take college seriously and if i have to study for something i'll get it done. My mom knows what kinda girl i am and how im more of an independent chill in my room chillaxin by myself kinda person.
Yeah, she's always gonna be worried but i dont understand where all this mistrust is comming from. It pisses me off cuz i dont think i deserve it and it makes me want to go out - "you think thats how i am then fine i'll do jst that" - "if ur going to mistrust me anyway why bother continuing trying to keep ur trust?"
but that way of thinking is so childish- yet oh-so-tempting.
And im mature enough not to give in
still though... im only human. keep pushing me... keep pushing me and they will NOT like the results
amina's already got enough crazy ideas and impulses going through her head she does not need any encouragement
